An Easter lesson

Today was Gideon's first Easter! What a day we had! Dad surprised us with breakfast in bed and then we ventured off to church. Wonderful service. Made you take time and remember that He is risen, and He rises for us! I've been thinking a lot on Easter this week leading up. Mostly because now I have a little boy. Could I ever go through the sacrifice of letting him go? For a world full of sinners who aren't even grateful? Could I stand by and watch as they beat and degraded my son, all for the sake of people who don't deserve it? I would look at people driving by, people who cut me off. People who yelled at their children, talked on cell phones and were generally rude. Could I give up Gideon for them? The answer is no. But how humbling it is to know that my Father chose me. With all my faults and flaws, He chose me and let his son die. To give me life. Wow. Way more meaningful with a child. I thought I got it before. I really get it now. Praise Him for his wonderful gift!

And then the kerplunk part. Gideon took his first nose dive off of the bed today. Head first onto the floor. Has a lovely carpet burn on his nose as proof. How pathetic is this picture. Poor kid. And he was under my watch, so I am officially up for worst mother of the year. Thing is, I knew he was capable of rolling off the bed. I'd been so careful, reminding Noah, reminding my mom, and a second's worth of not thinking landed my poor baby on the floor, screaming. I know that this little bump is the first in a no doubt very long run of bumps, bruises, scrapes and hurts, but to feel so very helpless was just heartbreaking. What a fitting day. I cried with Gideon and it hurt to look at his little nose, knowing it hurt him. Imagine what our Father felt watching them crucify his only son. His perfect son. Ouch. Yet another gentle reminder from my Father at how much He has given for us. Tonight as I kissed my baby to sleep after book and bath, I said a special prayer for him. For him to know the love his Father has for him, and know how special he is. To know that his Father chose him over his only son to have life. To have an amazing gift. To have the perfect gift. I can only home Gideon finds Him early on in life and holds tight. Never lets go. In my heart of hearts, this is my prayer.