A letter to my son

You amaze me. You are so much fun to have around. I am so glad you are in my life. This morning as we were sharing breakfast, I couldn't help but feel an overwhelming sense of love for you. I look at you, getting so big and learning so much and I am astounded. Humbled, even, that you are mine. That I get to share it all with you. You have 2 teeth now. Dad discovered the second one last night. You are so close to crawling, you can taste it. You can sit up all by yourself. You are a super hero! And you are all mine! I so much enjoyed taking you to the zoo the other day, and watching your expression as you saw for the first time, all of the critters of the world. Your eyes, wide with wonder, while you took it all in. I was giddy for you. I couldn't wait for you to see it all. I knew you would love it. And last night, while we read our books with daddy, you rubbed his head with one hand and firmly grasped my skirt in your other. So sweet! You looked at the pictures while dad read the story and you sat in my lap and relaxed. Simple evening, yet it meant so much to me. I am worried you're growing too fast. Can you slow down please? I don't want to miss any of it. Blogs and cameras and memories can only do so much. One day I think I'll turn around and you'll be all grown up. I have so much planned for us, Gideon. So many mud puddles to stomp in, forts to build and worms to dig up. So many books to read, adventures to share and ice cream to eat. I dream of Friday night snuggles in the big bed while watching silly kids movies you'll pick out, and Saturday mornings spent at the ball park cheering you on. I know it will all be here before we both know it, but I secretly hope it will wait a bit longer. Walking with you, holding you. Knowing you need me for every little thing right now. That's a very good feeling. I don't know if I'm ready to give that up just yet. I know, just like you are growing and developing at just the right pace, I'll grow with you and be ready for all your next steps. We can grow together. It will be our biggest adventure yet. I love you, my son. My joy. My light and life. Just wanted you to know that today.